Have you ever been Crazy?

Psychiatric Units are not noble establishments, private or public. You lose all your rights when you enter both. Having been in both I vote for private over public, the public ones are heavily understaffed and all conditions are thrown in together, not a very practical healing space that leads to violence and sexual abuse on a daily or weekly basis.

I am a bad patient when I enter these institutions, all I want to do is lay on my bed and eat even though the meal times are ridiculously early. I don’t want to discuss my “problems” with the nurses or the mental health professionals or attend the numerous therapy information sessions to fill time in. I have been through this process five times spending a total of six months in different units.

Last time was during a COVID Lock down wave. I was there for 4 weeks and was told I would be released the following Friday. Filling in the release papers I felt I was lying about the questions was I ready to go home. I found out they were releasing patients they felt had made some progress as they did nor want them to become Institutionalized during lock down. Therefore I spent the next three weeks on my couch surviving on Uber Eats. Then,one day Uber Eats, the next day, miracle cure I was as I had been before the episode and no repercussions. My doctor said it was the meds kicking in and my therapists that my issues had died down.

So does the planet believe in miracle cures, lets look back over time:

1, By far the most popular miraculous quote, Louise Hay made a fortune late in her life on this subject.

2. And it may only be that far: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=clJb4zx0o1o

3. Is that what happened the morning it all went away?

4. And yes, it was totally unexpected. I was expectant to be ordering Uber Eats that day as well: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bnVUHWCynig

5. A warrior general philosopher – amazing!!

6. I think they travel together: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3wKzyIN1yk

7. A bit of ancient miracle wisdom from Sophocles.

8. And thousands of people make their living from this belief: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6drfp_3823I

9. Health and Love – for me they seem to go together.

10. With curiosity in your life comes inner and outer health not boredom: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqRn3qM7zBU

11. This is one of my healing centres.

12. Perhaps my superpower returned, mine is words: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Cs3Pvmmv0E

13. I can wholeheartedly agree with that.

14. In a recent talk at Ted x San Francisco, Mel Robbins, a riotously funny self-help author, mentioned that scientists estimate the probability of your being born at about one in 400 trillion: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=egMWlD3fLJ8

15. And for our final lesson – Self-Love.

One of the main things I have learnt over my mental health adventures. is that happiness is not something to postpone for the future, it is something you design into the present, starting from today. Here’s a few things you can try on:

  1. Appreciate what you have.
  2. Focus on things that truly matter.
  3. Define your own meaning of life, and pursue it.
  4. Embrace Life’s Challenges.
  5. Find the balance that allows you to be truly who you are.
  6. Love your body enough to take care of it.
  7. Limit your time with negative people.
  8. Treat others the way you want to be treated.
  9. Set a good example.
  10. Accept what is, and live for the possibilities that lie ahead.

I put a couple of my favourite songs in the playlist, see if you can guess which one’s they are. CCR starts from way back, Beyonce with her golden voice is next. Rag’N”Bone man , one of my favourite discoveries is next followed by a group I had forgotten about, London Grammar. My unknown group for today is 4 Strings. We end with two classics from George Michael and Steppenwolf, enjoy: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJlQ3F9bKYrtg06WUA4QUXd6fJRee3zt5

When I go into these mental health free-falls is is the people who show me Love and Respect for All, Everybody Included that have helped me get through. Recently one of them died at quite a young age unexpectedly. I write this for you, Michael Arnould, until we meet again on some other plain, my dear friend.

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